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Later that Night - Rowan's Home.
Rowan gets out of his jeep, finally returning home after the long (but not long enough) weekend. A bit of time spent taking care of the laundry, a quick text to Jac' to let him know that he made it home safe, and he settled into his office chair, pulling up to his computer.
Leaving Akari behind safe with Cindi made sense knowing he'd be back the next night. He'd already set his phone alarm so he'd have time to drive over and pick Jac' up in the morning to start their carpooling. A lot of things were changing very quickly, but all for the better as near as he could tell.
So then why did something still feel so off? Rowan leaned back in his chair, breathing out a sigh. With all the emotion saying good night to Jac', the planning for the week to come, a great deal of scheduling and verification on his phone, and only now once he's gotten back home does his brain have the time to start thinking.
Rowan glanced down at himself, feeling a slowly rising sense of unease. Still... why? This was his 'real' form... right? No matter what that prayer said. 'True form, fulfilled. Fake form, needed.' Fake form. What part of this was fake? He... did say he'd rather be Akari... but that was more the feeling of being with Cindi, right?
Why did calling this his 'fake form' bother him so much? Jac' had freaked out when the impact of their feminine forms had first hit them, but... he hadn't. Because... he was deeper in character? Or, because he needed to be there for Jac'.
And sure, he loved being Akari. But of course he did. She was big, and fluffy, and beautiful. She was magical and... and so, so very feminine.
Rowan smiled at the thought of it, then caught himself, blushing. Did... he really want to be that? Not just Akari... but... but what? A woman? His hand strayed down, and he blushed thinking back to that first shower... he almost wished he'd gotten to explore a little more... the thought of having the female genitalia... He... he shouldn't be thinking like this.
Akari... Akari does have that body. And it felt so SO good...
Rowan sighed, raising his hand up to stare at it. Was it about being human? No... no, it really was the feminine thing, wasn't it? But what did that mean? It's not like he could even do anything about that. Right? And what would that even mean for him... or... her?
Rowan rubbed their forehead. How had this weekend made everything so much better, but still so much more confusing?
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